A relaxing morning

I'm enjoying my morning to myself. The kids are at the in-laws and Craig is working. I slept until 10:30am, that's unheard of for me. Its been a very very long time since I got to sleep that late. When I woke up I was kind of mad at myself for wasting that much of my day, but I must have really needed it. I got up and took a nice long hot bath and picked up the house a little bit and now I'm watching TV and messing around on the computer. I love my kids more than anything, but this is really a nice break.

I still can't believe my baby girl starts school in 2 days. Last night I sat up late looking through pictures from when she was little. Where did 5 years go? It seems like just yesterday she was born. I know Tuesday is going to be very hard for me. I've been crying just thinking about it. I asked Craig "Don't you think we could just keep her home another year, since her birthday is close to the cut off?" and of course I know we can't hold her back. She is so ready for school and it's so selfish of me to want to keep her home because I'm not ready to let her go. But she's my baby. I told her I'm sure I'll cry on Tuesday and she just rolled her eyes at me and said "Oh Mom". Somedays I swear she's 5 going on 16. Noah has been telling her "You don't have to go to school Teagan". He's going to miss her just as much as I am. Although I'm sure he'll adjust to having a lot of alone time with Mom and Dad better than I'll adjust to Teagan being gone all day. I wonder if I'll be like this again when Noah starts school? Probably.

I'd better go get ready just in case I actually get to work. I haven't worked since last Saturday. I've gotten on calls at both hospitals. SCARY. I'm so scared of whats going to happen with all the cuts and everything. I'm seriously debating seeing if I can get a budgeted position in FBP. Part of me would love to get a job closer to home, but I've worked so hard to get my "dream job" that I'm not ready to give that up yet. Wanting to be an OB nurse is the reason I went into nursing to begin with.

I will blog after Tuesday and let you know how we all did with the first day of school and I will also have pictures of her first day to add.