EXHAUSTED!

As most of you know my Grandpa has been in the hospital in BRF. Last night I worked in Tomah and I got a text from my cousin to call them as soon as I could. They were in BRF with my Grandpa, he was not doing well at all. He was confused and combative and was having a very very hard time breathing. After 6hrs of my family being there, they finally got a Dr there who within a matter of minutes decided that he need to be air lifted to Gundersen Lutheran. I was not impressed with the care he received. He should have been transferred the first day he was there. He's way too complex for what they can care for at a small town hospital. I don't think they would have even seen a Dr if I hadn't told me Aunt to demand to see him. I told her if she didn't I would be up there when I was done with work to raise some hell. Good God, where are the nurses that advocate for their pt's?

So I ended up heading to LaCrosse after I got done with my shift in Tomah. Needless to say I didn't get any sleep down there. They had thought he had a blood clot in his lung, they found out he didn't. Which is about the only good thing of all of this. He's got a lot of fluid on his lungs, his kidney's have pretty much shut down, his BP was way high so was his heart rate. They gave him Cardizem, he's on a lasix drip, a nitro drip, and getting morphine. He's also on BiPap. The grown up version looks way different than the NICU ones I'm used to. They got his hands restrained because he pulls the mask off and pulls on all the tubes. Even though I know what all of the "stuff" attached to him is, I still had a very hard time dealing with it. Teagan said to me the other day "Mom are you going to make Papa all better?" I said "No Teagan he's very sick" and she said to me "Mom, you take care of babies and kids, you don't even know how to take care of grown ups". I laughed at her, but last night I realized just how right she was. I could never work in the CCU. It scares me to death. Everyone asks me how I can work with sick babies, it's so much easier than sick adults who have so many other complications.

I finally got home around 8am this morning, I don't know how you night girls do it. I've gotten a couple of hours of sleep, but it's just not right to sleep when it's light out. And the kids aren't quiet, I can't blame them they are used to running and playing during the day. At least I don't work until 7pm, hopefully I'll get an on call. I'll get to nap with them this afternoon.

I will let you guys know when I know more. I'm hoping to maybe head back down this evening to see him again if I don't have to work. We'll see.